slow. we walk into the world....

i saw her not

2009-02-15T07:42:00.000-08:00

i think im obsessed. i never knew the name isabelle could sound so sweet.
overslept today haha woke up at 10.23 with russell kan calling me to come over my house for some emergency tuition. trying to learn river flows in you by yiruma . its a uber touching song btw heres the link : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhN7SG-H-3k
sometimes i wonder if people really are worth bothering about . i stand to watch her she twirl her fingers with those ill-fater marionettes on string , each minute move dicated by her every whim . everytime laughing is much MUCH better than crying . i have resolved to say less listen more.
The wise in heart will receive commandments: but a prating fool shall fall. proverbs 10:8

do you believe in fate

2009-02-10T06:53:00.001-08:00

i didnt see her today :(

do you believe in love at first sight?

2009-02-09T02:06:00.000-08:00

with what grace i saw her walk onto the bus . she flicked her hair and a smile crept over my face ahhhhhhh its fate if i meet her again: my kryptonite xD

JUST SO you know( if you ever read this)

2009-02-08T06:26:00.000-08:00

i promised myself never start anything with anyone who attends the same church as me . just in case i cross the line of going to church to spend time w/ her or god . dear me bio test 2mrwwwww

Like a gift from the heavens, it was easy to tell,
It was love from above, like it saved me from hell,
She had fire in her soul it was easy to see,
And the devil himself could be pulled out of me,
There were drums in the air as she started to dance,
Every soul in the room keeping time with there hands,
And we sang
Ay oh ay oh ay oh ay,
And the voices bang like the angels sing,
We`re singingAy oh ay oh ay oh ay,
And we danced on into the night,
Ay oh ay oh,
Ay oh ay oh,
And we danced on into the night
Like a piece to the puzzle that falls into place,
You could tell how we felt from the look on her face,
She was spinning in circles with the moon in her eyes,
The room left them moving between you and I,
We forgot where we were and we lost track of time,
And we sang to the wind as we danced through the night,
And we sang

hey whore

2009-01-11T06:37:00.001-08:00

lets sing about this whore oops there no time about that olevels are here!

back wITH A VENDATTAAA

2009-01-10T07:35:00.000-08:00

im back with a VENGANCE! OLEVELSS 4 POINTS! LETS GO!

m.y

2008-04-04T07:37:00.000-07:00

never know how much i was looking forward to today. More disappointed then ever.

2008-03-09T03:43:00.001-07:00

yesss i have a new phone and its number is
96228222! ahah changeee weee

lifesucks

2008-02-27T01:47:00.001-08:00

im so tired . just finished 2 hrs of street soccer(i sucked i let in 2 or 3 goals)and fumbled 2 goal opportuitines-.-' sigh swimming now

he will make a way

2008-02-23T07:11:00.000-08:00

heh. i realised how god will make a way for everything. i went for FUSION! weee yay had a fun time yup . haha the speaker was quite good. john pangseh me and went to eat ramly burgers i wanted man i was so hungry i didnt eat dinner -.-' (julian pangshed us the whole time)then took a ride wif gerald parents home yay church 2mrrw hope 2 cover lots of stuff during meeting :D

parents

2008-02-22T23:24:00.000-08:00

my fucking father didnt allow me to go fusion. i mean like i was aldry going but noooooo he called me back and we had one hell of an argument which resulted in him stomping up to my room and throwing all my schoolwork and my bible down . like WTF RITE? then we started arguing again. i mean like i tried so hard to obey everything he said, told me to do. then he started bringing things up on like how i havent been doing well in school , how i havent trained for the past 4 months or so, how i am such and underachiever and never got things done. ITS ALL NOT TRUE. and he tells me how my behaviour has caused him to stop believing in God. i mean like its all not true/ ive been doing my homework. w8 i mean 1st take a look at all my brothers. my smallest one quitted swiming, the oldest quited swiming too , im the only one that actually continued just because he told me too. i rather slack at home and dota the whole day. THEN HE GOES AND SAYS HOW ALL MY COUSINS ARE STUDYING SO HARD AND IM NOT I MEAN YEAH MAYBE IT NOT HARD TO YOU but ive been doing my best cant u fucking c that. then he goes to tell me how badly i manage things like i never file my worksheetsand stuff and how when he sits with other fathers and talk about thier children HE HAS NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT. WELL ASK YOUR OTHER 2 FUCKING SONS TO DO SOMETHING BIG THAT YOU CAN BE PROUD OF 'DAD!' WHY ALWAYS ME ? he tells me how i defy him but everything he said i always did in the end nomatter how grudgingly. what the fuck should i do.
with parents like mine?I DONT NEED YOU . i wish that i would be 21 and i wont ever live under the same roof as you. ever.

churcies

2008-02-03T06:10:00.000-08:00

oh well at least i did something constructive 2dae. :) i love u churchies
soooo anyways moving on we had a meeting though um cara did everything-.- uh so we decided on the theme wee! isnt that great . i just finished my descriptive compo! 2x yay! so the bad points of 2dae was i got scolded by my parents D: and i didnt go church service D: so my day was average! there short and sweett

2dae

2008-01-23T04:37:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BDAE CARA ABBIE(yestarday) AND SOON TO COME JOHN CHEONG ! yay ure all 1 year older!
AHHH I BENT MY BONE LOL the doctor took some x-rays of my foot and found out that y little toe bone was bent!!! LOL rite? i mean how did i bend it? the doctor then said that young people's bones are elastic! WOW! so they dun break but bend instead -.- sooo now my legs in a cast and im using crutches! my grandomthers ones and before that it was my aunts so its been in the family for a long time so its sentimenta-sniff .some people dream of using crutches but thats stupid crutches are like how hard to use ar

vietniam

2008-01-10T20:04:00.000-08:00

off to vietnam there where theres no1 to talk to... ohwell miss u guys rawr

school

2008-01-04T06:58:00.000-08:00

my school sucks -thats official. why do we even go to school . to get pissed off by people you thought who changed for the better. with thier insecure words and vulgarities. people you prayed for now so different. going to school to see the number of masks they have . -sigh school is so screwed up people are so screwed up. its probably cauz the teachers are wierd which is why im going school ahahhhhh screw school it sucks woooooo nvm oh yea happy bdae julian we didnt forget

newyear!

2008-01-01T05:16:00.000-08:00

sigh its 2008 aldry sch's starting seems so far away :(
i shall post my newyear's resolutions now
a) muz do qt more often n nt at nite cauz ill just go to sleep
b) try to keep god in the frnt of my head
c) study harder
d) do not leave things half-done
e) try understanding people before hating them
f) stop procrastinating!!
ahha sec 3 cells gona own! woo

rainydays

2007-12-09T02:59:00.000-08:00

feel dam sad today cant write it on my blog cauz i hav my own reasons but i feel sad its so deepp. do we all get those days when we start reflecting on how screwed up with our lives are. oh well..

camp

2007-12-02T19:01:00.000-08:00

back from camp camp rocks!!! wooot i shall now recall it in a dairy fashion
day1
nt much. started off with going ngee ann city and eating pepper lunch 4 the 1st time. peper lunch rocks except too much peper in thier food. we had a good laugh over the spelling of the brown honey sauce mispelled as broown honey sauce haha okay moving on we went cold storage to buy sweets i bought 2 bags of m&ns and 1 hershy dark chocolate kisses(less sugar). john bought timeout and mars bars liling bought 1 bag of m&ns and post-it.Sundenly john and liling dropped a BOMB! they said i was nxt year sec 1-3 camp camp comadant and cara was the dcc i didnt believe them.Theen we went and took a cab back to church and met with out group (YAY!) my group was kinda wierd. xavier was my gl and hes cool he practically did every sharing during camp yea so he rocks.i had caroling , jian rong , byron , dawn ,sabina, elaenor and chris sun( law sun bro).
the first day was ice breakers ( damnn fun) we had to do forfeits like quaking around other groups like a duck.the rest of the day we had worship and stuff had a meeting then went to sleep.
day2
woke up at6 with joel ( couldnt sleep at all due to planes flying overheard every few minutes)had qt well all the other people went to pray 4 camp. sitting there on my group table i prayed for god to let me feel him and then i talked with jian rong who just came by. soon i got bored with the 1 worded responses he gave me and started stoning till cara came with charmaine and some1else who i 4gotwho and save me frm boredom whee. we had games in the after noon... my group sux. we only won 1 out of the 6 games and thats captains ball. i lost to liling;s group and lawrence group ( i lost to all my friends noooo)2 times each -sigh but we all had fun so tahts good :D.at night ryan confirmed what lilind n john said. CAMP NEXT YEAR IS GONA ROCK U GUYS!( you go guy!).had another meeting again and went to sleep.
day3
worship was the best ive seen u all do in the morning guys u rock yea!played tell and intresting thing about youself with my group.( im taking higher art next year and i talk to the wall when im bored) we had waterbomb fite! YEA I DONT CARE
I OWNED BRENT CHIANG HAHAA BSCARED BRENT CHIANG LOL then i dunked ryang and lifeng! haha so funn.
that night was super meaningfull we were like touched my god and i like cried ...i went to ryang and he prayed 4 me. i love u ryang youre always there for us even if u still dont teach us . then i sat down and he prayed 4 john so i asked lawrence to put hands on john and he asked cara liling and charmaine to put hands on john too . i love you john too u rocks so do all of you. cara charmaine liling lawrence ian tatt joel-I LOVE YOU ALL WEEEEEEE EVEN IF LAWRENCE IS 1 YEAR OLDER THAN ME AND ILL STILL HATE HIM FOR THAT. after that we just prayed for eachother.I LOVE YOU GUYS THANKS FOR BEING THERE WHEN I NEED SOME1 TO TALK TO WHENI FEEL DOWN U ALL ROCK. needless to say we had mucho tears and hugs and after that we prayed for ryang. he cried too. all of us will be friends forever. that night i prayed prayers more than 10 sentences long and i think all of us felt god;s presence and god rawks.( that nite god told me that he was wanted me to really lay my entire life down for him , surrender it completely wothout regreting it.seriously)after thatwe played truth or dare( i had to pole dance :( i wonder why every1 was so intent on making me pole dance) lights out was at 2 am and i wnet to sleep again in my pink pj :D.
day 4
woke up to realise that brent left me his stuff to bring back. being a cool and kind guy i did it packed everything and had and arm wrestling competition. noo charmaine almost beat me. dawn almost too :( haahim weak. liling was realllllyyyyyy clossssseeeeeee to beating me but guy power owned girl power in the end :D . haha later we went bac to church and home
cara john liling charmaine geraldsim lawrence jeremy joel ryang u guys rocks and ill love u all forever and thanks for letting me know im loved
jesus you know im not that strong
you give me strength to carry on
so i fall into your arms by debbie our fatastic cc
haha i just found out an emo verse in the bible
"my tears whisper where is your God "psalms 42:3

2007-11-28T06:36:00.000-08:00

woooo today;s my high day! 2mrrw is camp and im an agl in a group full of people i dun noe ... oh well precamp was funn the pastor was blowing some horn that was funny i thought. anyways camp is 2mrrw and i havent packed finished -sigh lets go out 2mmrw b4 camp i nid to buy sweetss and stuff for d angel mortalz game and my group WOO ROCK!

take back last sunday

2007-11-11T19:30:00.000-08:00

haha its been a long time since i last posted but its cause my com is confiscated
anyways its the last few days were rather fun firstly we had a sec1 sec2 cell outing to sentosa yay it was super fun we went for the skyride and the luge( iwas scared of heights but that sadistic ass called john tried to make me look down lol) . thenn we went to play frisbee which i totally sucked at(john was quite pro suprisesuprise!) after that we had lunch( i had chng tng) then we had had some worship and reflections ON ROCKS how cool is that! some crazy crab craze then some people(liling lifeng cara lawrence i think) went for a swim LOL after that we went home . on the MRT a certain person told me that newton was 2 more stops away soooo when cara john liling got out i was waving them gdbye like a idiot and waiting (with lawrence)for the next stop.... ahhh zzzz
then at night some1 called mark sia called up and told me i was an AGL for the coming dec camp WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
haha i dint attend the mtg cause i had my uncle's wedding. i just realised it was my uncle's wedding and nt my cousin.they have like similar name like kok yun and kok yu sooo who can blame me :) anyways i was supposed to help out as a parking marshal so i had to wear this stringy bright yellow like of vest a hold a super stinky walkie -talkie but in the end i got a angbao wif 28$ for helping out! oh joy lol anyways yea thats it
this is probably my longest post ever haha

im sick

2007-10-27T05:02:00.000-07:00

im sick..........................................
lol this is random

disconnected

2007-10-20T21:21:00.001-07:00

i had church today . worship was fantastic good job!! well thanks for the prayer liling :D. sorry i wanted to stay back for 10.30 worship but i couldnt cause of parents . sorry this is a boring post

hypocrites

2007-10-20T21:06:00.000-07:00

there was exodus on friday night. -sigh i couldnt go cause i had my godmother's bdae... when i asked people about it, they went like oh you know there was this cute girl or like hey all the girls were like..staring at my handsome face or like eh i got this chio bu's number. i hate this sort of people . i mean like the reason why exodus was organized was not so that you could meet up with friends or stalk girls like its for God. i mean yeah i noe some of you have your " secondary" motives but your primary motive which is to worship God should be the most important reason you go.

exams

2007-10-17T06:13:00.000-07:00

screw my exams ar... i noe i shud be thinking like wow , at least i now cant go to barker. yeayea i noe but still i expected something better from myself.....-sigh

sunday

2007-10-16T08:13:00.000-07:00

im bored so im gona blog about last sunday.
i had church then i went watch a movie.after that i went to some boring muesum 120 years or sth like that(my parents wanted to go cuz of some hossen leong guy )1st we had some stupid drama shit opening then we went on a BORING tour. after that we met hossen guy than we went outside the musem to thishuge plastic chilli.There the guide started telling us abt the usefullness of chilli.
ANNDDD.... GUESS WHAT
SHE STARTED TELLING US ABOUT HOW CHILLI IS GOOD FOR SEXUAL STIMULATION thenn she started telling us how eating more chilli will stimulate ur penis....i was like WTF?
then she goes on to tell us how eating alot of chilli will increase hormonal levels (again WTF?)
then she tells us about how u shud leave chilli out mix with some thingy andd leave outside for some number of days then rub it on our breasts to make it grow bigger.. okay thats enof i was bored

friend

2007-10-15T08:17:00.000-07:00

do u hate it when people call u names u never want?
here are some of the nicknames im called
gay-----------------majority of acsi friends prominently porno and bra
50% dreamer 50% sleep ure a no-lifer------Mr Yap Yew Hing
joke---------------majority of acsi people
nayr(nay-ir)--------------- various friends
dryan(dra -yan)--------------- Mr gavin ang
ry(r-i)------------------------------gerald sim
fucktart(fuck- tart)----------------bra
fuckhead----------------------------jieshun
homo-------------------------------zhende

once more

2007-10-12T23:04:00.000-07:00

ive just realised that my relationship with god has rotted. i havent been going church & cell for a few weeks ( due to parental control) and its like i forget about my qt times now. i suppose its the same problem with friends when u enter holidays and break off from them they dont bcome part of ur daily lives anymore and u start forgetting then when u come back form ur holidays u realized how much u missed them. yea i guess its the same thing and im missing god now .

again

2007-10-12T08:26:00.000-07:00

okay i had another boring day. dont feel like going cell due to the fact that ive lost interest in cell well there ends my boring post gd nite

exams

2007-10-10T20:28:00.000-07:00

exams are over i porbably failed all my exams but thats good cause i wont go acs barker(my parents want to transfer me to acs barker but need 75% avg)^^ okay so i have 4 more days to live and i hope i wont waste it

younger brothers

2007-10-03T05:56:00.000-07:00

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Yestarday i saw

2007-09-29T20:34:00.000-07:00

porno hates me now bra hates me im okay wif nictan now my fren drew a picture of me wif a girl's body . then he showed every1 he met but he said sorry after that so its okay but the harm was done. i have a new name now. its called joke

2007-09-19T02:28:00.000-07:00

i had a fairly intresting day today. in the morning i was pissed off cause of some stupid badge that keeps coming off and poking me so in the end i had to buy a new one. ( WA LAU why dont they just let us wear our own clothes to school? sien)Some of that anger got lost during LifeScience- i never laughed so much during LS b4(we were learning abt *** part 2(girls)).that reminded me that last friday we had *** part 1(boys) where we learned about how dicks errect. then my fren ask so if u pump more blood into ur dick it will get dam big?? then my teacher was like....? u think ur dick is a balloon?? haha omg wtf rofl okay. the rest of my anger went into the chicken during home econs today - the chicken didnt look too pretty when i was done ^^. after school i went to street soccer woot funn like crazy man. i noe i played like shyt :( but i played properly after that goal :) thanks people -friends you make me happy :)

art

2007-09-18T06:27:00.000-07:00

i had the last day of my art exam 2dae andd i dint finish!! OMG
screw ar but i got into higher art ^^ yay (yup soccer 2dae was fun... srry i was playing around)

piano

2007-09-17T05:36:00.000-07:00

today i had a piano exam. i think i did really badly i fumbled with all my notes. i feeling really down and when i went on msn my two frieds i always talk to were off9 so now i really dont noe what to do now.some1 help me. why does every1 expect so much outta me?

parents

2007-08-29T06:27:00.000-07:00

i was having a rarely good day but when i got home my parents spoiled it :(

worst day

2007-08-28T04:53:00.000-07:00

today in the morning nic tan and i had a fight. he wanted to quit maple , give some stuff to seankhoo and the rest for the maple guild. then i ask what i get cause we both share acc (i contributed 20mil) then he go say nth cause i quit maple. then i say i want back the money cause i wan give my frens but he goes no cause of some shitty reasons which are all not true
1) he says that i nvr train at all when i actually trained like crap (woke up 3 am to do pq)
2) he says the 20mil he use go buy pots ( yea but now u gona delete acc so money go to waste the 20m buying all the expensive pots la )
3) he says i quit maple ( i say i havent yet and i want the money)
4) he say i never contribute any A-cash cards( he stole 30$ from me to buy acash and i didnt even want acash items)
5) i said dont delete (he say yea so when u gona play?)i said next week (he says yea your parents will be at home and u cant play) i said i can (then he says yea and your internet lagg and u dc ?)then iwas like im gona use lan wire rite?( then he say lan wire still will lag) then i say wana bet? (then he say to the rest of the class looking at us and started complaining abt me) then i just turened around and dao
wa loa i almost cried ar FUCK U NIC TAN THINK U SO BIG TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME SCREW YOU LA
anyway i think i knew this was coming jus didnt want to believe it
then 2dae inter-class soccer was like a waste of time. out of 4 matches (15mins ea) i played like 1/2( 7.5mins) against 2.13 and i didnt even touch the ball la
it was like the Zeke prefect guy run a me with the ball , i just stone there he runs into me and fall down then like ahhhh pain. next aanother guy wearing SVM house tanktop ran towards me and fell down said FUCK YOU LA then ran off. and the rest of the matches i didnt even play at all . AM i that bad?
somemore that porno i go help him scold amos then he still insult me la
I HATE MOST BOYS
THEY ARE FUCKERS THAT TAKE ADVATAGE OF YOU
SCREW : nictan & porno

they kill me slowly i cant freaking live up to their expectations

2007-08-27T05:16:00.000-07:00

today i got seriously screwed. first my teachers at school xpressed how disapointed they were at my marks at thier subjects my lateness. why is every1 able to find fault with me??
then my math tuition teacher scolded me. i mean like i noe its not a big deal but she rarely scolds so its like dam bad
then when i come home my parent starts scolding me on my piano i was like okayokay can we talk over dinner then my dad goes NO!so i had to listen them leacturing me on how i must not procranstinate. sien just another normal day of my boring life
im sorry brathers for being cranky and dao the whole day i guess its cause of my results and people's insults
sorry shun for the pen-in-ear thingy i was bored . dont get too angry kay im just abit tired of people insulting me so i went to the corner of the class to stone

My day

2007-08-26T06:59:00.000-07:00

went out with my friends they make me happy. watch ratatoville ate long john sliver had neoprints yea basically had fun ^^ today is one of my better days